Trusting God

One thing I have had to learn the hard way is trusting God. I am thankful for Him for showing me how to, though. I needed it.

Recently, my dog, my friend, my companion, Kaos, was put to sleep. It was the hardest event I've had to live through. Words can't describe how I felt saying goodbye and Bubba and Beverly taking her to the vet.

See what happened is, she's been puking, but we figured it was because of her new dogfood, so we just switched back. Then, she wouldn't walk or potty for about 70 hours. The vet told us her liver was bad and her kidneys are messing up. They had her on antibiotics, and she even ate for them!! They told us it was a sign of improvement. Later they did bloodwork, and her kidneys had shut down, and they wanted us, erm, ME, to make the decision, let her come home and suffer, or put her down. I could NOT make that decision, so my mom did. It was so hard. BUT God has shown his grace and mercy on me. I have listened to so many songs about relying on Him, no matter what's wrong, and His strength being all a person needs.

I miss Kaos, more than words could ever describe, but I'm resting in God's hands, knowing He has a plan, a purpose, and a future for me, and He loves me, and that's what matters. I lay my sorrows in His hands, and He takes my burdens for me. Jesus took every single burden I had when He died on the cross, so why should I be sad? God blessed me with Kaos for a short time, and yes I'm greedy and want more time, but I'm thankful for what He's given me, when I deserved nothing. When I deserved to sit and cry and mourn for a long time, God reminded me, "Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." Mathew 5:4.

Thank you, God, for helping me and my family through this!





Note: I know Kaos was 'just a dog' but we care deeply in our family for our animals. :)

I'm Still Alive!

I know it's been a few days since I've posted, but I haven't had time nor motivation to do so.

Not a lot has been happening in my neck of the woods. I have finished my brother's blanket and have been working on Mom's now! I also have a short list of things I'd like to accomplish this month:

1. Finish Mom's blanket
2. Complete these books: Black by Ted Dekker; House of Night Series by P.C. & Kristen Cast; Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris.
3. Get a sleep schedule created and stick to it.

hmm that's about it for the list!

Next month, I will be spending lots of time helping with a wedding a my dear friend Brenna! I can't believe she's getting married! You can just see God's love through her and Eliot. They are truly a match made from Him!

Also, I ask that you all pray for some friends of mine whose names will be unspoken. I have a few friends that aren't Saved, and it breaks my heart knowing this. Yet, it's not my decision, but rather it's their own. Please pray they find the way, and that those around them are great examples of Love of Jesus for them!